I just want this all to end. I have no purpose what so ever.. I’m so close to giving up everything..
That post literally just described how im feeling at this very moment. I never knew someone could explain in such detail all of my pain...
Really..? Who are you? I’d really like to know..
Each day, I loose more and more of myself..inyet I’m trying to do every possible good thing I can with my life. I often question myself. What’s wrong with me? I’ve never been SOOO depressed in my life. I’ve never felt so worthless, and hopeless. But no one can ever tell theirs a thing bothering me.. I don’t know how much longer I can do this. Each day I’m getting so close to my last, so close.. I can feel it. I honestly don’t want to go, so soon..but sometimes this is all just too hard to keep trapped in me.. I recently got diagnosed with lymes disease. I was told after all of this I may not be able to walk. Fuck it, just take my life away while you’re at it. I’m not ignorant, trust me. I’m just sick of feeling so empty, so alone..so depressed. I don’t know what to do with myself right now.. I hope I find out, before it’s too late… All I want to do is feel happy. I’m doing everything I possibly can to pursue happiness, I really am. If only people knew.. and understood. I wish I had SOMEONE that could understand this all. Understand why I am the way I am, cause I have just one clue. and that is the drug that ruined me.. that took ahold of me and wont let go.. just holding on by a string somedays, and grasping me others.. I wish I would have known this is how things would have turned out.. or maybe I was too stupid to listen. The first time I did it.. no problem no nothing. I thought the media had given her a bad name. Nahh, I was just stupid.. and now I pay for it, even when I’m not using.. I pay for it even though I’m never using again.. she holds me, deep. She took my soul, my happiness, she took everything. I’m never happy for any lasting length of time. wtf do I do.. someone please. anyone..
I’m more valued than diamonds, more precious than gold.
The sorrow I bring is a sight to behold.
If you need me, remember, I’m easily found.
I live all around you, in school and in town.
I live with the rich, I live with the poor.
I live just down the street and maybe next door.
I’m made in a lab, but not one like you think.
I can be made under the kitchen sink,
In your child’s closet, and even out in the woods.
If this scares you to death, then it certainly should.
I have many names. But there’s one you’ll know best.
I’m sure you’ve heard of me, my name is Crystal Meth.
My power is awesome, try me, you’ll see.
But if you do, you may never break free.
Just try me once and I might let you go.
But if you try me twice, then I’ll own your soul.